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That Feeling May Need No Explanation
In the end, perhaps you do not need a perfect answer to the question, “Did my sexual desire become stronger in my 40s?”
Hormones may have changed. Life may have changed. Opportunities to feel desired may have become rarer. Or perhaps you simply notice your own desire more clearly now.
Any of those may be true.
You thought, “I want a man to desire me.” You thought, “I want to see a man become captivated by me again.” That feeling exists now. Perhaps that is enough to begin with.
When you are hungry, you do not need to write a paper explaining the origin of your appetite before eating. When you are sleepy, you do not need to fully solve the science of sleep before going to bed.
Yet sexual desire often feels as though it must be explained and justified.
Perhaps you can be a little freer from that.
You do not have to perform the role of a woman who wants nothing when you come to OPUS. You do not have to know exactly what you want. You may want to feel intensely desired. You may want to see a man’s composure shift because of you. You may want to stop deciding for one evening and let a man guide you.
And you do not have to decide today that you will use OPUS.
You want his gaze. You want to feel wanted. You want to see a man become absorbed in you again.
That feeling exists. That can be reason enough.
